When I first started on my spiritual journey, I had no idea the number of things that would come up for me to heal. I am very aware of what my own ‘demons’ are, and I am very aware of when I am triggered.

I have had counselling over the years along with CBT and other conventional therapies to help me tackle these. More so the things that I used to do to self soothe myself when I was triggered. Being honest, they do help to a certain point. For me though, I found that holistic and alternative therapies took me that little bit closer to the root of the issue.

Which is where I am right now. At the root for one of the demons. And it is painful. It is raw. I feel extremely vulnerable.

To anyone who has embarked on a self-healing journey I say well done. It’s a very brave thing to dive into the depth of your shadows. It takes guts. A lot of people package their demons into a box, wrap it up tightly and leave them on a shelf, to forget about them.  Which, to be honest, I have done with some things. Unfortunately, what I have found is that they rear their ugly head when you least expect it or they can manifest themselves into something else entirely, namely dis-ease.

What did surprise me was how addictive working on yourself can be. I discovered that when I cleared something it would unlock something for me. My energy modality would change slightly, or my mediumship abilities would heighten.

Someone said to me recently, yes you can keep working on yourself and clearing but there are some things that you just need to make peace with as they are part of you. They are the essence of you. And they are right.

After a very intense EFT session a couple of days ago and the potent full moon energies, I am allowing myself to feel the way I do. I am not going to wallow in this emotion, I am feeling it and releasing it.

Tomorrow is a new day.